i get a SNOWDAY!!! yayay its like im 6 again i have no school and no work and im going to go sledding after i do my homework that i should have done last night!!! wooot partay!!

mick also purchased caffeine soap i heart you caffeine!!

today i made rat-salad for my pie rats because the food they were getting was not healthy for them. its sad because i know they are going to die and prolly already have cancer but im going to give them the best life a rescue rat can have. i dont know if i should continue to rescue them or get ones i can raise you know. lab rats end up with cancer and have short life expectancies but i couldn't accept that people are just going to kill them they deserve a little bit of retirement after their slavery.

i filled out all my information for the honour society i get inducted on saturday yay!!! chapters of it are in japan and will make studying abroad easier. hooorayy

( either way heres some cute pictures and a silly video )

miss noggin terrycloth

the Countess Elizabeth Bathory would not have her picture taken this evening!

i was told i was going to get thundersnow!!! bastards! it was lovely today and i wished it would have snowed more! i hope it snows well into april, i made cute mittens today out of wool socks i found on woolsey st. in berkeley. they are nice!!

oh i also made my first bpal order yesterday... im excited... and frightened... some please take this lovely scented syringe out of my arm for i fear this could become dangerous.

i ordered: yggdraisl, arcana, jack, black forest, brimstone, something else and im hoping to find some mechanical phoenix

i ditched my current society class to do my stooopid current society homework!! reading a book written mostly by and economist and a little bit done by a sociologist and i am not one bit amused at 2 chapters and night followed by 2 papers a night, not one bit! its hard to do all in one night.

i know things are bad, i am angry already, ahhhhhh! my brain screams with dissatisfaction, i cant remember when things were good. why do i need a book to reinforce my anger and lack of heart felt comments for society!

i want a cookie for having to deal with this. make it a box of cookies and a six-pack!

but really who are these kids in my class? where have they been for the last 20 years? i wonder if they still believe in the easter bunny?

im so sad

i had a horrid dream last night about a puppy that was put in a plastic bag and beaten to death and i had to be the one to find it :::cries:::

didnt know i had homework, prof. said it was ok and i could hand it in late.

some guy almost killed me on my bike today and then yelled at me about it.

first friend in madison moved away.

lonely.

i want to run away again.

sad.

i dont want to wake up and go to work tomarrow.

there is an indie queer dance party i want to go to with my pal savanah.

my rats are super cute and they like biscuits.

i feel ugly.

i shouldnt feel anything there are kids starving under bridges... i wish i was starving with them

my housemate made sushi. love.

i got some amazing honey last night from my friend who just got back from visiting her family in poland. ummm honey. i need to figure out what to put it on.

i heart this computer.

im thinking of purchasing a guitar.

my tummy hurts from beer.

and i have this fucking grateful dead song in my head... well only part of it.. its lik: when your settled down you want to travel, when your traveling you want to settle down. its so true. i cant wait for summer.

teh grateful dead.. yucko

i got big plans and im gonna make em real
ooooh eeeyyy oooohhhh

guess who got a mac book today and made herself some borscht with help from the squirrel captain?
that was me your favorite caffeine addicted friend miss jessie cafe

root veggies are awesome

smash the state and eat your veggies

right now

they werent going to let me keep them grrrr. i guess they get all broken up.

i didnt take to long and it wasnt painful because i was put under the last thing i remember saying was "i need to remember to stop breathing through my mouth"

are straight edge kids allowed to get gassed for things like this, i felt really weird because they were encouraging me to do drugs of course it was under supervision but i still felt awkward.

havent eaten since midnight last night. and now i finally got up to mash myself a banana, its like feeding a baby, complete with the drooling in the food then continuing to eat it. i want a 5$ shake! oh jack rabbit slims i wish you were real.

i watched fire walk with me. turns out any time im sick or some kind of medical attention is needed i turn to twin peaks. when i had mono thats all i did ive seen the first episode of twin peaks so many times id pass out before the end but either way....

i do say, david lynch is the best director since kubrick.

hahaha Henry Rollins interviewed Manson last night, i believe it was a rerun, but Henry was using his serious face, and Manson is o.k. and all , but god is he sensitive. make me puke.

so i just got a phone message today that my mom left on thursday, its my mom crying and telling me that our family animal companion Neeka a young a adult dog was hit in our yard on left there, my mom was at the grocery and came home and didnt see her and my brother was walking home and noticed that neeka was laying in the yard. and she wasnt breathing well. my mom rushed her to the vet and she died in the parking lot of the vet.

what kind of fucking monster hits a Dog with their car and just drives the fuck off.

Neeka is an indoor outdoor dog with a collar and lets herself in and out of the house when she wants in a secluded neighborhood so who ever was responsible for murdering my moms dog 1. lives in the neighborhood or 2. knows some one who lives there there is only one way in or out of the place and strangers dont really have a reason to go there.

who ever did this to neeka better hope i never find out who the fuck they are.

i have had jay Zs song can i get a fuck you in my head all week.

so i was/am still a very shy person. ive gotten over it since being in madison but today in front of my entire English class (a class i talk a lot in and feel comfortable) start giving my informal presentation and start stuttering so bad i cant speak and shaking my paper so violently you can hear my paper rattle in the back of the class and i start tearing up in front of every one. omg!!! i had to sit down in the middle of my presentation.

i did however finish it while at my seat after every one else had gone!

also on an up note japanese exchange next year W007

1. What got you into the whole diy(sewing/crochet etc..)thing?
i cant find anything i really like if im out shopping, everything is boring if i make it atleast i made it boring you know. ive always had this horrid habit of cutting stuff up to make it cooler. my mom hated it.

2. If someone just handed you $1,000.00 today, what would you do with it?
i guess stock up a bit on yarn and fabric, take my friends out for dinner and donate
the rest to help animals get homes.
3. What is your favorite scent and do you have any specific memories associated with it?
clove ->when i was little and my adult teeth were growing in my mom gave me cloves to chew on and then i just started chewing on them as a breath mint because i cant chew gum.
4. I am totally fscinated with knives and swords, but I HATE guns. How do you feel about them?
i like guns well enough i guess they excite me, im scared to hold them though. there is too much power in such a sub par weapon. my favorites are morning stars, flails, and flanged maces.

5. Your most favorite sandwitch? ;)
****drools****i heart sandwitches.... umm if were getting fancy the fat vegan from fuel cafe, not fancy toasted peanut butter and bananas, or even less fancy famous daves bbq sauce, peanut butter, and squeeky farm cheese. thats the best!

ugh i like school

i hate work

id like work if i wasnt at school

i want to be involved in things

i want to create things

i want to have time to make myself be happy.

this suxor.

meh.

made two skits last night and started my panda costume. one day i will have enough time to my the ultimate stegosaurus costume.


rats eating candy munch to loudly,
take away their sweets they are upset.
sad rats do not make pleasant house guests,
so just wear earmuffs.

well i got a lot of sources for my topic today, a lot of peer reviewed articles from different papers and journals. also a couple books that look good.
also, Wisconsin is in the top tier for best animal protection laws. yay us.
though UW is P.E.T.A.S' #1 for worst schools for animal testing.

had open studio today so i finished up some tone drawings, went to work and left early.

work tomorrow, the world of beer, and geek.kon, inferno?

sunday geek.kon lolita style, beer, and halloween costume making,

Christmas cookies like melting snow
soggy stale and sleeping
does not make cereal bars any less than space food.

i tried to cut my bangs they look silly.

im a real sickie i left work early today, i dont know what im going to do if i dont feel better tomarrow. i have so much stuff to do this month and ugh i dunno i cant get myself super worried cuz ill make myself worse. i will press on i dont have time to be sick!

why the fuck are there no good reliable sources about factory farming, animal mills, and stuff like that....ugh

i have to stop watching animal precinct.

i am an amazing poet of nothing. (there will be pictures)

hot, cold, hot, cold what the fuck.

( the question thingie from miss<lj user= )

there is nothing like man o war in the morning.